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thewarriorkai's Journal  Okay... I am valiantly trying to get some writing done... however, things keep arising and messing up my efforts. This time... I had to have my gall bladder removed. So on top of the c-section surgery that was only in October... I had my gall bladder out about three days ago. *shakes head* I WILL do this.... Next year it'll have to happen! Current mood:  drained.
Well, Hero was born on Oct 8th (his daddy's birthday) at 3:26 am. He weighed 7 pounds 3 1/2 oz. Black hair and dark blue eyes, 51 cm long. Unfortunately, due to a multitude of errors during delivery and labour (he was healthy all through the pregnancy)... he went too long without oxygen to the brain. So on Oct 12th his life came to an end. And Chris and we held him as he passed on around 11:28pm. He was gorgeous and I'll never regret having known him, even for a such a short time. Pictures are available on my facebook account... under my real name Melodie Leclerc. You can see for yourself and if you do you'll know that I'm not just saying that because I'm his mom and biased but because it's true. He hung in for a very long time after they pulled the oxygen... definitely living up to his name and giving us time to spend with him. He was my little warrior. Current mood:  frustrated.
BOY... And his name will be Hero *GRINS*! Sorry about not updating earlier... my life improved and then went semi crazy but this time in a good way... I'm engaged now and pregnant and let's just say... when I'm not at work, eating or going to the bathroom... I'm sleeping. I'm trying really hard to write but it's just not working out like I'd hoped it would! I hope you guys understand... and I DO plan on finishing ALL of the stories I've started... just have faith, k? Current mood:  exhausted.
WHAT I'M WRITING... 1.chapter nine of A Change of Scenery FINISHED 2.chapter nine of A Strange Fellowship 3. PWP for Everybody Breaks and POV (requested by Z) 4. A Cliffhanger for Little Mouse (GW, AU, 2x5 - apparently Wufei is going to be a first time bottom... at least two parts, maybe more depending on how it goes) 5. chapter two of Sexual Magic 6. chapter ten of A Change of Scenery 7. chapter ten of A Strange Fellowship 8. A story told from the Everybody Breaks, new Heir to the Dragon Clan (reflecting on her five fathers and her life, etc.) (requested by Nat) 9. Chapter eleven and twelve of A Strange Fellowship (dedicated to travelerkino who pointed out that I missed chapter ten of A Strange Fellowship... thanks) Thanks to everyone for being so understanding and sticking with me when things started going psycho in my life! Current mood:  determined.
FINALLY FINISHED - EVERYONE JUMP FOR JOY!!!!! A Change of Scenery: Part Nine by Kai ( Read more... ) Current mood:  accomplished.
Well, I'm finally in Edmonton. But I have no job (my friend applied to about 7 or 8, degree-related jobs for me... but we haven't heard anything yet)... which means that I need to go and find a menial job and hope that eventually I get something with my degree. What does that mean? It means I could end up with 2 or 3 jobs again *sigh* I'm sort of ressigning myself to the fact that, the time and money spent on a degree to avoid doing the 'typical' jobs and actually get a career of some kind was a waste of time, and I'm going to be stuck at a fast food place or something just as unsavoury for the rest of my life. Add that to the fact that I still love my ex and that I swear I'm suffering from withdrawal because I miss him so dang much and... I'm not in the best of moods. It's not going to get any better than this, is it? I had hoped that going someplace with possibilities would change everything and things would finally start to get better but I guess I really have to hit rock bottom before I'm allowed to float back to the surface, huh? This isn't to say that my life is worse than anyone else's. I know it isn't, that overall I'm pretty lucky compared to others... And I know it may seem selfish complaining like this. It's just, even when things were bad in my life before, I always had something that made me happy. Even with the car accident, debts and sucky jobs - I still had Randy. Then I lost him and... Nothing. I didn't even have the time or the energy to pick up a pen and write my stories like I used to do when I wanted to perk up. Don't get me wrong. I'll do what I need to do to keep going. Always have, always will. I don't give up, give in or run away (at least not for too long). It'd just be really nice if I could have one area of my life be something that makes me happy. On another note, does the pain of having someone you love - who used to love you - not love you anymore, ever go away? I'm trying to be his friend but he doesn't seem all that interested at times. He told a friend of mine that he does want to be friends but... Never mind. It makes my head and heart ache to think about it all, it's really messed up. Hopefully I can finished typing up the next part to a Change of Scenery and post it soon. If things go well, anyway. Current mood:  crushed.
Okay, what's been happening to me since I last posted... my boyfriend broke up with me... I'm moving to Edmonton... And I'm going to do my best when I get there to have only a single job instead of two or three... plus, my roomie has the internet which means... I'll actually be able to update! YAY! Anyway, I'm fine other than that stuff.... sort of... Current mood:  devious.
Okay... so... I crashed the car I just got to replace the other one that fell apart. How did I do this? I fell asleep for all of a few seconds and ran into an iron sign... bye bye car. I'm sore and stiff but alright. Forced to take three days off of my jobs. *shakes head* I did the honorable thing and informed the RCMP, got a ticket for $402 but it could have been worse. Still owe my bro for the car $950, and I don't know how much the city of Redcliff is going to charge me to fix the sign... add that to the fact that Redcliff is a 15 minute drive from the city of Medicine Hat... where I work my two jobs and... the good news is that, because of no public transportation between the two towns, I will walk and be in excellent shape for when I take the physical test for the RCMP... unfortunately, there are no jobs in the Hat for my degree so I can't get a job to replace the two I have. With my new bills, I honestly don't think I'll be able to get by without taking on a third job in the evenings and just grabbing a quick shower where I can... but my family doesn't like that idea... yet, I know for a fact that they won't be able to help me out much, not even with driving me to and from work... soooo, yeah... Life is, er, good *laughs*. At least I can't say that my life isn't exciting, right? What else to say... not much. Except, they say that bad things happen in threes... so, one car broke down and I had to get another one. That one was totalled and so... one more thing to go. Considering the only thing that's going okay right now is the fact that I have had a boyfriend for about a month... well, needless to say *sinking feeling* I'm thinking that I have an idea what the number 3 will be... Oh well, if I can take all this and smile, deal and keep moving... at least I'll have a better measure of the sort of person I am, right? If I get crushed under the weight, I wasn't as strong a warrior as I had thought and if I manage to trudge ever forward until the load starts to lighten then I guess I've got one hell of a resilient character. By the shield and the sword, Kai Current mood:  contemplative.
Sorry about the lack of communication. I really do have the next part to A Change of Scenery written, I just haven't had enough time to type it up for you guys! And, to make matters worse, I think I may have to get a third job again. So my day would be: Work from 12:30 in the morning till 8:00.... then work 8:30 to about 5 and then work from about 5:30 until about eleven or twelve... if I get a third job, again. *blinks owlishly* and that would supremely suck. If I think I have little time to write now, it would be impossible then! GAH! I also don't think I'll be going to the Con after all which also sucks... dang it. On a good note I do have one good thing I can mention... I gots a boyfriend now. He's crazy! But he plays the guitar really well! *GRINS* Don't ask me how I manage to fit him into my, er, semi tight schedule but I'm doing my best. I WILL finish these stories, and maybe I'll get lucky and I WON'T need to get a third job after all.... er, maybe. *shrug* if not, I can sleep when I'm driving between jobs... or when I'm dead, whatever comes first. Current mood: crushed.
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